I sit here tonight looking at your chair like I do most nights but tonight it’s different. Tonight I feel empty & lonely & wish more than any other time that u were sat there so I could hear what you would advise. So much has happened since I lost you & gamma. I’m glad you haven’t had to go through the pain with me but would like to know what you make of it all. Today my house, Beth & Fred’s home has sold. I’m scared, feel I have let them down & don’t know where my next journey is going to take us. I must remember how scared you must have been & yet you bravely took what life had planned for you with such dignity & no regrets. If you can do it. So can I. Please keep checking on us & help guide me to be doing the absolute best I can always. Love you so much xx